TGIF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

My final day of having chemo all week and yes it pretty much sucks but it is all okay. I haven't felt too badly and life goes on in a fairly normal way.

I get a transfusion today (5 hours) and then my final chemo for the week today (3 hours) and then I see my Doc for a follow up on Monday. I am not sure what he will want to do but whatever it is, I will do it. I like him.

Just wanted to give you a little heads up. I know you all like to call and email and I can't always get back to everyone and I feel bad.... I have been working all week too.... so please understand if I try to cover it all in this little blog.

I do still appreciate your every thought, prayer, concern positive affirmation, etc., much more than you know.

Your love and comments keep me going every single day. Don't forget it. You are my life line and my daily strength. Thank you so much.

Love and big hugs to all!!
 

It is all okay.

The last test results weren't too pretty but its okay. I am feeling fine and doing the chemo thing everyday. I am still working.. at least trying to around appointments and more blood work and all the phone calls and text messages and emails....  but its all good.

I danced a lot today. Well... this morning I was listening to some fun dance music and shakin it.        It was "Do you love me?" by The Contours..... just paste the link below into your browser.....

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TXs_Cyrb3NQ&feature=related


Or maybe you prefer the dirty dancing versions....


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x43vK0k6A2I



See, you didn't expect that did you?

Then on my way home I stopped at a little market and picked up some pretty sea bass and cooked up a nice little dinner. That was fun and now I am stuffed but happy and propped in my comfy bed with a bunch of fluffy pillows. A little tired but hell I have been running around all day!

Everything is great. Life is good! I love every minute of it!






Here are a few recent picture of my new twin grand daughters... Amelia, on the left and Scarlet.

Adorable aren't they??

 Amelia is olive complected and has a head full of dark hair... to me she looks just like her mother, Sonya.

 Scarlett looks totally different. I think a lot like her daddy,  Ryan... but I watched a video of my hubbie when he was just a little baby the other night.... and she looks just like him! I swear!

 Precious! With a full tummy and in her Pops lap.

 Amelia looks like she has something to tell the World! I can't wait to find out what it is.



Just wanted to say howdy and let you know all is well.

Thank you for the continued support in each and every way. It is so appreciated. And it works. : p

With all my love to you.....

Damn... I hate to tell you this....

I guess the best thing to do is just put it right out there.
I haven't been feeling well at all. I keep working because it takes my mind off not feeling well.
We did another PET scan on Tuesday. This test is about the best thing technologically, we have to see what cancer is doing in the body. You don't eat any carbs or sugars for 48 hours and just before the scan, they inject you with radiated glucose. The sugar in the glucose is attracted to cancer cells and with the radiation, it lights up on the scan anywhere there is a measurable amount of cancer.
I met with my Doc on Wednesday. It has spread to the liver, more lymph nodes in the abdomen and something about the kidneys but I stopped hearing much that was being said to me about there.
I got the news today that my CA-125, the blood work they do to determine the rise or fall of the ovarian cancer cells present, is on the rise and back up to where it started two years ago in the 4000 range. Remember that normal is zero to 15. Not too good.
So, what does that tell us? Well, the chemo I have been taking isn't working. So we start a new chemo on Monday and we are going to do it every day... Monday through Friday. Then we will take another look at the blood levels and make sure it is working.
No, its not a picnic, but at least I still have options.
I still love my doctor and you know what? He really cares about me. I love his nurse and same thing, she really cares about me.
I am trusting that they will do whatever they can to help me and if they can't, well... maybe I will take my precious Hubbie to Paris and kiss him under the Eiffle tower.
The prognosis is as yet unknown....and I have a crystal ball. (Damned thing doesn't work.) 

I am so sorry. I really wish it could be all rainbows and unicorns... but life is tough sometimes and we just have to roll with it.

Amp up those prayers.. I know you will... and I will do my part. I will show up for chemo and keep a positive attitude and see what happens. I didn't write the script, I am just here playing this role. The ending is a mystery to us both.

Please know that I am not afraid. I am surrounded by love and support. Whatever happens, is okay. No whining, no sniveling, no negativity.
Do you hear me??

I am still one of the richest people in the world.

I found true love.

I lost one child and gained two more.

I have my Mom, who lives with me.

I have 4 wonderful children.

I am rich with my extended family, my sister, brother, daughters in law, and all their extended families, cousins, aunts, uncles, step-brothers, step-cousins, step aunts... it just goes on and on...

I have 7 grandchildren!

I have friends... not hundreds, but true, real friends that I love dearly and only wish I could express to each one of them how much they are loved. 

I am by far, the richest person I know.



Check this out this link below if you can. I have seen many of the TED talks but this was so beautiful .I love macro photography and this captures a bunch in a video. Hope you enjoy it and thanks Nena for sharing. 
Just copy and paste the line below in your browser.
I love you.
http://www.youtube.com/v/xHkq1edcbk4?version=3