I read that our planet had plant life for thousands of years before the first flower ever bloomed.
I didn't realize how much I took them for granted.

 The same force of life that allows that flower to bloom is in all of us. It is our connection to each other.

 I think this energy will flow through us and to everyone we touch like the electricity that flows through the wires of an extension cord.

I have no special power, any more than an extension cord but just like that cord, I can connect.
This life force, this connection, is ours by some sort of divine right, if we simply connect...  plug it in.












 I just love that. I just love you because we are all connected.We are all the same.

When I am with people that my heart is close to I tingle with the excitement and joy of being with them.
It must be why I love family dinners at our house. They are big events and filled with a bundle of people I love. I am buzzing from just thinking about it! My thoughts about having fun times together with family and close friends make me feel great, alive and happy. And all I am doing is thinking. (goosebumps)

I also get a kick out of talking to everybody I come in contact with. I try to talk to everyone. I try to engage the lady that checks out my groceries or the waitress that brings our food, the people I talk with on the telephone at work... and I try to remember that we are all one and the same.
I wonder, "Why is this particular person here, in front of me at this moment in time.." and I try to understand. Sometimes... I can get the same buzz from a total stranger that I get from interacting with my family and close friends. Its there. It is always there. It is the connection from whence all comes.

Our short, little lives aren't even a blip on the screen of time as we know it on this little blue ball, floating through space. Therefore, our problems, hardly even register. They almost don't exist. They amount to practically nothing. Not even a pimple on a gnats ass.

Have you ever looked at a geological time scale?? This one isn't very exact... but you get the idea.

That is some long span of time, huh? So you see, our little problems don't amount to a hill of beans.
Now, go forth and be happy.

My PET Scan was sort of cancelled and re-scheduled. The tube shut down with me in it. Such fun!
No big deal and not nearly as scary as getting caught in the drive-through car wash last week... with my dog... and let me tell you about the muck on the floor inside one of those darn things.


Better yet, forget it... cause it doesn't amount to a hill of beans. : D

Make a memory this weekend!!!

I Love you!!  
 

Keeping it real

I began writing this blog last May.. I think, or maybe June.

At first, I was reluctant and shared it with only a few people. It was so personal. I had some growing to do. I had just been diagnosed with stage 4 cancer and it sounded a lot like a death sentance.

I didn't know how things would turn out. And, well.... I didn't want to start a blog with all my friends and family and then... croak, and have a blog hanging around out there in cyber space. Ewww.
I have since gone through a bunch of chemo, surgery, etc. and responded to treatment remarkable well.


The dred threat of it returning will probably always be there.


When you are handed a particularily tough situation, it is in a way, a priviledge... something out there is telling you that you are able to handle it. Its an opportunity to either grow from it and get something good out of it or just give up and watch your toes roll up and disappear under that house that fell on you.

I simply took things as they came and worked on staying positive and happy and breathing, one minute at a time. I am not amazing or extraordinary... more like extra ordinary.
The weird thing is, we are all finite so why are we shocked and saddened by death? Everybody dies, and on some level, we must realize this. We just usually never know when, so we pretend to not realize it and live as though we have a zillion more sunsets to take in so whats the big deal about this one?

But, you never know.

You may never see the last person you just talked to again. Tonight may be the last chance you have to make the person you love a nice dinner... or tell them you love them... or go for a walk.



I do believe you can choose to be happy.



It isn't always easy, but it is definitely a choice and almost always the better choice to make. And no matter what you are dealing with, and we all have shit we are dealing with, you can take the moment you are in right now, right this second and breathe in, slowly.... a big deep breath and exhale and remind yourself to choose happy. Don't spend a lot of time worrying about anything. Worrying seems to always be about something in the past or in the future. You are not in either, you're here, right now.

In this very moment, I am happy, and feel great and am full of love and cake! Right here, right now everything is wonderful. I am not worried about a thing.

The next time you are in a situation you don't like, breathe and remember to only be in this single moment of existance, and control your emotions to only feel happy.

Rolling in a big pile of fall leaves happy..

Wedding day bliss happy...

Whatever brings a smile to your face... think of that and make the choice.

If you can do it for a just a second, you can do it for an hour and if you can do it for an hour...

you can do anything, this one moment, at a time.

I already love you if you are here, reading this blog. For reals.

Thanks for sticking in here with me. I wish you knew how much I feel your love and support. It is tangible.